Lonely Christmas Eve and Christmas Eve

I had not been KL churches for celebrate my important festival as a Christian fellowship and I very disappointed that no chance to join how Christian fellowships had celebrating X'mas at KL church since I study in KL as well as do confession before X'mas coming.

I still remember that I went out with my AIA friend who is Wong Weng Kong and he had dropped from the course. Actually, the planning is I tried to ask my friend fetch me and go to church but he didn't know how to go and traffic jam some more in the end. So, he fetched me and had had a "dim sum" as a supper on last year.

This year, I have not any plan for celebrate X'mas Eve, however, my others 2 AIA friend invited me and plan to watch "The Chronicle of Nardia 3D" season 3 in Berjaya Times Square on X'mas day which had been planned 2 or 3 days before.

I feel that the story of Nardia is quite a good movie even it is not a "hot" movie for this season. Furthermore, I very happy that I had spent the time with my friend to enjoy in X"mas day.

hard time and busy during study

It's long time that i have not updated my blog. Recently, i am busy with my study and also Final Year Project but i also waste the time on facebook and youtube, having my break fast while watching it.

Since, it's last semester and last year, i still cant change my style to manage time for the study. However, sometime also no much time to revision because rush the assignment. busy busy busy....

i do not know what i want to be in my life and it is so frustrate for me......it is really hard for me to live on this society.

我的生活

过了二十多年生活的我,很少过着快乐日子,

因此烦恼也阵阵的随着来到我的生活.

过着不改过的生活,真的好辛苦....

就因为许多烦恼,

我不知如何去面对.

我也曾经对自己说过,

不想有任何爱情出现我的生活.

..............

在这几年来,

我多数一个人度过每一天.

因此跟社会也有一段的距离.

My meanigless life

The final exam had finished, I have to go back Muar on Wednesday because of Hari Raya sure many people back to Muar on Fri, Sat, and Sun. So, I was feelt alone for these day (wake up, online, eat and watching TV).........! Look like abnormal man to live .....

I said to myself that find something to do in order to improve my skill or knowledge of computer language but I feel lazy ....may be the Internet is the temptation because I alway surf youtube to watching some video or surf facebook to play game ...........I really can not control myself.

Moreover, I don't know what will happen when I back to my hometown. Event though I back to hometown I really nothing to do. Actually, my life doesn't meaningfully for me because I can said that I seldom contact my friend or ask them go out and "Yam Chan". However, "Yam Chan" is not my style because I don't know talk too much and not topic to talk to each other.

In additional, I don't not whether I choose the right course in my life or not? The reason is I think my mother want me work in Muar but I think that is impossible to me work in Muar and I think there is not have suitable job for me to work. If can, I wanna work in Singapore or KL.

In future, my adv. diploma year 2 sem 1 is Industrial Training and I think that is more challenge for me and I feel that will something happen on me when I go to work for Industrial Training.

Disappointed of me

The Digital Multimedia make good test failed again, but Mr. Tan gave the chance to do "Make Good Exercise" in order to help passes the coursework mark and seat for the final exam. This is a good idea that Mr. Tan gave us. I hope that I can put more effort to do the best even though I hate this subject.

Moreover, I felt lack confidence of my presentation of the Flash game. Because the flash game which I had done totally not attractive at all. The final exam is coming soon and then OOAD assignment still no yet finish. The 3-tier code which really make me worry because I just went my group member hostel to discuss but they all don't know how to do it and they intend go to the other fren hostel for helping. And then I went back hostel early that would be safe for me at night. On the hand, I really want to learn the 3-tier code, but the time is not available for me.

Thus, I really afraid that my group member will stab behind me which I did not contribute in the 3-tier code......Why I worry so much of this part....? I hope my mind must think in positive way and calm down, don't bother what they said, I just take my initiative to ask about the assignment progress. I hope they can finish it and teach me......

Thursday Morning that is the Briefing Industrial Training for us (Adv Dip yr1), I felt I lack of confident in Industrial Training after the special guest gave the talk and my soft skill not good enough. I afraid I might be failed the interview section. Andrew... Andrew... be strong in your life, don't be afraid. God will guide you (me) everyday.

I hope God can helps me whatever the problem come to me even though I seldom pray for God and I hope He will forgive me.

Is friendship forever

In my past experience has told me that the friendship is no forever but we need friend in our life. Wtihout friend, is it difficult to survive? Sometimes I ask myself is the friend important or not. It is, actually, important. Therefore, I really seldom make a friend in society and FRIEND sometime give the troublesome to you then they will blame you after I help them. I think I am a fool person in this society that always exploited by friend. For example; FRIEND ask for help from me in order to borrow the library book. HE, in fact, has their own ID card and they did not resgister. Later, I can only help him for two times. Because he had ordered the book and the supplier did not come. So, my FRIEND blame me and stop talking with me.

But for me, it is not my fault that I want help to renew the book. On the other hand, a FRIEND word tuns into ENEMY for my life. So, how should I overcome it......haiz. It is no choice because I too believe my FRIEND. The FRIEND we can not choose whether wanna make with him/her because we need the FRIEND to support our business sometime.

That is only one example which i shown above, I had facing the different problem with the FRIEND. So, I very disappointed of myself who really can not trust a FRIEND and I think it will give me some experience to observe how a FRIEND looks like. In my past experience, it can be shown that a FRIEND exploits me to do something for them sometime and then I will reject when they ask me to help next time. Neverthless, I no will to help them anymore they try to avoid me and stop to talk with me. I will think what was happened of the event when I free.

Moreover, I will take the time or before sleep I think back who is fault and to change myself. As the result, I just ignore it what was happened that a FRIEND I will try to forgive them. As a christian, I should forgive them and may GOD guide me and forgive me about my personal style to treat a FRIEND. Whatever it is still a FRIEND or not, I say to myself don't be sad, everything will be all right except FRIEND would not forever untill I leave my life.